Sometimes we falter not because the ground beneath our feet is unstable but because it’s exhausting to keep moving, to keep trying, to keep performing the same actions again and again. Strong one moment, vulnerable the next, we falter because we are alive, and with any luck we recover.
Author: Kyo Maclear
Publisher: Harper Collins
Birds Art Life Death collects Kyo Maclear’s inner musings on the art of observation and how we can learn to appreciate the small things in life for what they are, without expecting anything in return. Maclear feels at a loss when her father, whom she has a close relationship with, falls gravely ill. From that point on, Maclear delves into what she calls a state of “anticipatory grief”; after all, her father had taught her that there is some protection that comes from expecting the worst, whereas relying on empty hopes makes you unbearably vulnerable. Faced with this situation, the author seeks to cling on to something – or someone – that propels her forward. She finds the answer in a documentary called “15 Reasons To Live”, more specifically, in a musician and bird photographer, whose work reflects images of animals that stand out in the urban environment; those imperfect, dirty and pedestrian places we call home. In a way, the photographs feature an unusual glimpse of beauty over the vulgar and flawed.
The book is made up of 12 chapters, following the 12 months during which the author decides to follow the photographer in his various walks through the city of Toronto. Maclear talks about regret, loneliness, lulls, waiting, and other topics that relate to art and creativity. Her observations, devoid of useless turns or pretentious wordiness, speak about the need to slow down and pay attention to our surroundings. Interestingly, the author finds it difficult to justify the most apparently meaningless creative outlets and wonders whether giving ourselves to them suggest some form of privilege.
Why did she turn to bird during this crisis? They symbolize that constant clash between beautiful and ugly, urban and nature, freedom and reclusion. Humans pride themselves on the free will that derives from their ability to make decisions. At the same time, it’s those decisions that lead us to stillness, whether this means a person or a place. The circumstances that we tend to value the most give us a false sense of comfort: I have a stable income, a family, and I feel comfortable in my environment, what else could I ask for? On the contrary, we can also decide to lock ourselves up out for fear of the unknown. Following this train of thought, is it possible to live locked up and not be aware of it? If you have only experienced captivity, would you recognize freedom and know what to do with it?
Throughout her journey, Maclear discards the idea of becoming stranded dreaming of abundance; instead, she learns to focus on the abundance we can create with limited resources, as well as how she uses these obstacles to flourish her artistic output. Any creative person will surely find something to ponder about after reading Maclear’s ideas.